I have nothing to look forward to. I gave up this weekend for my best friends to worry about being with their boyfriends. This isn’t fair to me. They are coming back to my house to get ready and walk over to the house. I don’t want to go. I am a freaking 5th wheel. I don’t want to be there. It’s it’s going to be too late to make plans with anyone else and they will get mad at me if I do that. Sweet. Fml. I am so pissed right now. I hate wasting my weekends. Like I want to be a good friend and be supportive, bugs this is the third time that I am going to be in this awkward situation. I am so done with it. I want to make some time for me, and do stuff that I want. My family wanted to go bowling last night but I said I didn’t want to go because I had to come here. I wanted to go so bad :/ I hate this so much. It’s like, all of my weekends I dont get to choose what I do. I mean, I love being around them…but no one else matters…now they both have boyfriends. I’m gonna be dumped soon. Or just flat out used. I never hang out with anyone else now. It sucks. But whatever. I have to hold it all in. Bye.